WHY DO YOU HIDE?

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Dear Princy

Past few days had been so painful for me but finally I was somehow able to make peace with my lot in life. It is difficult to accept that you can never be mine and it will always hurt a bit. But more than that, what was hurting me was your painful silence. I know you hide it because you want to keep me safe, keep me away from hurt. But no matter what I do, a hurt that has to come, will come somehow. I don’t agree with you on limiting our expressions.

If you love me, then express it to the fullest. You never know when time runs out, and we fail to express ourselves. Then you will have this regret that things were not said, things were not expressed and that words died in the silence- unspoken, unsaid, hidden under the veil. So, cherish the time that we have with each other. And yes, I too understand that we have to accept our fate, that we can never be together. But at least show as much love as you can, as much care as you can.

When you did not speak for a few days, when you did not express your love, I thought that you had forsaken me, and you were talking to me just because you didn't want me to be hurt. But I could not feel that spark. I could not feel that passion. And I also felt like giving up. I felt like returning that watch or giving it to someone else. But after some time, you said you missed me. And then it changed. And I felt relief, a great relief. My pain ended for some time.

If you want me to be strong, if you want me to be a wonderful person, then be with me. Do not hide things. I'll try to keep things under control. But you have to be there for me. You have to be there with me. You have to express, you have to help me know that even though we are not able to talk, you are with me. And you always will be with me. You have given me a new purpose. You are my goddess. Let me worship you. Let me cherish you. Let me adore you.

Yours.


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