WHAT TO DO WHEN SHE DOESN'T TALK

A certain change has emerged. Those hours where we used to talk have shrunk down to a few minutes only and sometimes she didn't even reply even when she's online. And it hurts. It hurts so much that I'm discouraged. I'm discouraged to go on. I'm discouraged to help myself. I don't want to get healed. She is my inspiration. 

Today I told her that I needed her help. I won't say she didn't talk but she was online for a while but she didn't reply. I'm trying to remain sane but it hurts to see that I'm nowhere on her priority anymore. 

Still I have enlisted some points to keep myself positive even when things say otherwise.

1. I thought she is ignoring me when she didn't talk for whole day but at night she called immediately after getting free from the work. I was still her first priority.
2. She's doing this because this attachment is painful. She is trying to protect me.
3. May be someone is around when she's online on WhatsApp so she can't reply.
4. She's doing some other work on WhatsApp and that's why finding it difficult to break her focus from her work.
5. She was with me even when her friend asked to keep away from me.
6. She had told me beforehand that we shouldn't get this close.
7. She always tells me to do music and she wants me to be successful.
8. She sent her friend away first and asked me to wait for her at the mall.
9. Missing tile syndrome: we tend to see negative and trust negative first. I wouldn't count things when she helped me or when she replied. But I am likely to hurt myself by thinking that she doesn't care rather than understanding that there must be some reason why she is not replying. 
10. Even her husband is getting angry because she's not able to talk. So I should understand she is really so much occupied.
11. Be hopeful. You may have a brighter day. Currently she is undergoing so many problems and she's afraid that things may take negative turn between us and she is not ready for it when so many things are already going on. I should act as a support rather than adding to her problems.
12. Law of reverse effort: This law may not work under other circumstances but it definitely works here. The more I try to make her understand more likely I am going to piss her off.
13. May be you can win her back in long run after she knows your pain through your music and writings.
14. Be thankful for whatever you had. There are some people in this world, who are not loved by anyone. 

So whenever you feel she is ignoring you, don't be sad. Just bear it. It's better to bear this pain than to bear the loss of friendship which could be yours.