AN UNSENT LETTER

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    It feels so bad when she doesn't reply. I know she cares, I know she thinks of me. I know I matter so much to her. I know I'm so important to her but it's not the same and it will never be. There's a difference between the way I do it and the way she does it. For me, she's my everything and with every breath I think of her. Yes she also thinks of me most of the time but not with every breath, because I'm not her everything.

    She loved him only with that much heart and soul. He means everything to her, not me and that's why it's not the same from both the ends. But I've accepted it. But acceptance doesn't alleviate the pain and I don't want it. This pain is beautiful. This pain makes me proud that I could at least love someone this way. If I loved her only because she loved me in the same manner, my love would be a bit selfish. But loving her when I know she won't love me the same, makes me proud. That's why this pain is beautiful.

    I'LL LOVE HER EVERY INFINITE UNIVERSE.


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