PARADOX OF HEART

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It's just a few hours away but the wait feels so long and my soul asks why is it taking so long, can't I magically reach there a bit earlier. Even the wait feels like a punishment, which in fact is a reward for me but my mind doesn't understand and still asks why I have to wait. But every good moment comes after a long wait and alas! It doesn't last long or at least it feels so. You do everything in your power to freeze the moment but you are merely a powerless Person just like others you don't have any control over the passing of time. It will pass mercilessly so quickly and you'll keep begging it "please more time, more time". But cruelly it shoves off your plea like your plea is some words of non sense being spoken and don't mean to give an ear to.

My heart pounds within me at the thought of this. I'll meet after so many days. How would I feel? I don't know yet but my heart is becoming so restless, faster than other days and I remember her words when we met earlier "tachycardia". Yes I'm experiencing a strong tachycardia for my only wish is going to be fulfilled soon.

But a myriad of questions and other uncomforting possibilities cloud my brain and make my pain stronger - will she ever love me the same? Will she also burn in the same desire and feel restless in the same way I'm feeling? Will she also beg for that moment to pass slowly and cry when it doesn't?

Love is strange. It gives moments of joy so brief, just like the sands of time but it gives plenty of hurt and countless tears. It's not worth it to undergo months of pain to gain just a few hours of comfort but the heart doesn't understand. Love drives one insane at times.


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