HOW MUCH I WANT TO TALK TO YOU

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    I don't know where to start telling you, but I miss you a lot, and I feel so restless without talking to you. Last night, I wished I could talk to you, but it was so difficult. People say they miss their loved ones with every breath, but I am not exaggerating. I miss you almost every moment, every time, every second. I miss you.

    I will leave for medical college today at 11:00 a.m. as there is a proposed meeting at 12:00 p.m. However, meetings are mostly delayed from the proposed time by 1 to 2 hours, so I think I will have sufficient time to talk with full privacy. I will keep you updated.

    Do you know I never used to get up so many times in the middle of my sleep? I would straight away go to bed at 11:00 p.m. and wake up at 7 or 8 a.m. But now, you are so much on my mind that I always half expect to find your message in my inbox, so I keep checking it frequently.

    How can I describe the way my heart is beating right now for you? How can I describe my restlessness when I see that I am not able to talk to you? Right now, I want to talk to you so much. I want to call you, but I don't want your migraine to get worse, so I am not calling you.

    I wish strongly that you could wake up right now and see my message and be motivated to call me. Right now, I am going to the clinic to attend to any emergency. I will let you know when I have reached home. Before that, if you want to call, you can call me.

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