HER ENDLESS LOVE

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First thing I did was to cherish the beauty of yesterday- how we hugged and kissed. In the cab, she put her head on my lap and asked me to glide my finger through her hair. The warmth of her love is something I can do throughout my life. It was all beautiful. I am glad we missed the bus and took a cab.

After getting ready I went to have breakfast. Amongst the people around I was restlessly looking for her. My heart ached to see her and in her absence I was lonely even when surrounded by people. I was at the breakfast table and the food didn't taste good. Every now and then I was looking in different directions to catch a glimpse of her but she was nowhere to be seen. A pain somewhere arose in me- tomorrow we have to be apart. How would I be quiet within me? Will not my spirit be discomforted? Will not every second pass like it’s an eternal punishment? Even though I did not see her, I saw her later and for the rest of the day she tried her best to be with me.

I thought of transferring my registration for a lucky draw to her, because even though it was very low probability, I wanted to give that minimal possibility of winning to her. Does it mean I will lose? NO. NOT AT ALL. How can I lose when she is winning! If she wins then I have also won because she is my everything. Isn't it quite mysterious how things have come so far! A friendship has grown into a love that seems to have no end.

A lot of times she says “Why do you love me so much? I am not worthy of love.” and this hurts me. Why does she live in denial of having her right to be loved?’ Yes, at times I also ask myself why I love so much but not because I feel she doesn't deserve my love but because it was so unlikely for me to fall in love with her. She has changed me in an unimaginable way and those who know me can easily notice the change in me no matter how much I try to hide it. She has made me stronger and I am overwhelmed by the realization of the power of her love. How I have become bold. Had it been earlier, I would have compromised on spending time with her in public places due to fear of what others would think of us.

A few days ago I was a bit sad at the realization of how she still misses him. She told me that when I share my love for him, she thinks of him. She still misses him. Which means I won't be loved in the same way. But I underestimated the depth of her love. She took a stand for me even after being warned by her friend not to trust me. She has not compromised with her trust in me. She took a stand for me even when it was so difficult. Her efforts to be by my side and to do everything for me are evident.

THANK YOU MY PRINCY, MY EVERYTHING. YOU TOOK A STAND FOR ME AND I WILL NEVER FORGET IT. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LOVING ME THIS WAY. I KNOW IT WAS NOT EASY, BUT STILL FOUGHT THE WORLD FOR ME. YOU RISKED EVERYTHING FOR ME. I KNOW TIME IS NOT IN FAVOR, BUT BE GLAD WHAT WE HAD WILL ALWAYS BE PRECIOUS IN OUR LIVES.


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